Home and Light

 

A blog is a very narcissistic activity, because it's always all about me -- my life, through my eyes... I'd write more stories about other people but it doesn't always seem like a good idea. It's safest to write about myself. And everything I write about, everything that exists in this world, is filtered through my eyes and my experiences. (Of course, I write about the boys and about Thor, but still, it's obviously me back here talking.)

This is a photo of my house, taken tonight, and obviously touched up GENEROUSLY in Picasa. Because I didn't just want a picture the way it came out, I wanted it to be the way I see it. And I like the way this one feels.

The house is a lovely thing.

I have a lot of "irons in the fire." Don't I always? I've always got big ideas and not so much on the follow through. But lately, I've started painting again, with the thought that maybe someday I really will be an artist. And, I'm going to attempt Nanowrimo again. Nanowrimo, for those of you who don't already know, is a challenge. NAtional NOvel WRIting MOnth. You write a novel in a month. Good, bad, or ugly, it doesn't matter; the goal is words on paper, not quality. I can DO that. I actually DID do it, once; I have the certificate I earned for finishing it on the wall in my laundry room (Where I have all my certificates, and a few notes. I put them there to help motivate me to do some real work, once in a while.) Last year, I tried and failed. (Failed at both Nanowrimo AND at doing real work once in a while.) Oh well.

With my paintings, I'm trying to find light, especially the light I feel inside when I'm outside in the dark. Like the Pearl Jam song says, "See the path cut by the moon, for you to walk on..." So I've gotten a few started. I'll post details when I have some. But I'm trying to paint a certain feeling I get.

And with my novel -- for which I really don't have much of a plot yet -- I'm going to try to write some Young Adult Fiction (am I crazy?) about the feelings that all of us have, but as teens we don't seem to realize are universal.

I've always wondered about writing a novel. How can you write a story that isn't about yourself, or about someone you know? But I've read that if you make up the character, and the situation, and then you just go with what the CHARACTER wants to do, you'll have the story. So that's my plan. It's not going to be about anyone I know. I'm naming the main character Tyler... I think... that might change. And it's filtered through my eyes and my experiences, but it's not about me or anyone else, in particular. I'm going to TRY to make it about the universe. About the light inside of everyone, when they are outside and in the dark.

I might be brave and post some of it on here. Or I might not. The goal is writing it, not necessarily having it read.

Wish me luck!