I'm hungry.

I don't diet.

Because I've never been able to convince myself to stick to a diet.

It's like I have two voices in my head. (Did I ever mention this before? I do repeat myself alot. Maybe it's because I have two voices in my head.)

One voice says, "It's really time to start a diet."

The other voice says, "You can't tell ME what to do."

The first voice usually talks the most about dieting right AFTER I've had something yummy. At that point, the second voice is willing to agree.

But at the first hint of hunger, the second voice says, "EAT." And the first voice doesn't say anything at all. So I eat. And then, AFTER I've eaten, the first voice starts talking again. It says, "It's really time to start a diet."

It doesn't work really well.

Anyway, the girl who sits behind me in work is very good at dieting. She's always on one diet or another, and she walks every day at break and often on lunch as well. She brought in a three day diet plan for me to try.

I made it to the top of the mountain this weekend, right? So I've decided that for three days, I'm going to FORCE myself to exercise some self control. (Plus, I did walk again yesterday, since I had started walking again on that hike.)

My goal is NOT to lose weight. I don't think I'm ever going to be able to do that. My goal is to prove to myself that for three days, I can exhibit self control.

But I'm not happy about it. I'm hungry. This is where most of my diets go bad.

So far I've stuck to it, but I'm not happy. I'm thinking about making my dinner right now and then going straight to bed, so I don't have to think about food. I certainly won't be watching TV with Thor tonight -- well, nothing except the Big Bang Theory. He loves to watch cooking shows, and they make me even hungrier.

I'm not walking today either, because I'm feeling faint.
(No, not really. I'm being overly dramatic. But I'm HUNGRY!)