but I really don't want to go to sleep
I want to play
or maybe read
My eyes are getting a little heavy
but I don't want to waste a minute of my own time
It seems like every day is very scheduled
and regimented and pre-determined and planned
(you get the idea)
I have very a precise time schedule
Even with being late most days - about 7 minutes every morning -
because it's hard to wind my internal clock -
but every day I hit the alarm clock at the same time, drink my tea at the same time, drag myself to the shower at the same time, rush to the car at the same time, etc, etc, etc... so I'm supposed to always get to bed at the same time, so I can wake up on time...
but now, it's vacation time.
So. If I decide to stay up all night long, looking at you-tube videos of people playing covers of rock songs on the violin.
What difference will it make?
Tomorrow, I will wake up late - maybe even after 9, and then drink three big cups of tea right in a row.
I really don't mind work. I like my job and the people I work with.
I just hate the fact that my life is no longer free.
But like Thor says, that's why they call it a job.
So I'll "suck it up." usually.
But not tonight.