Monday, March 30, 2009
I wish I had a pony.
Did you wish you had a pony when you were a kid?
The thing is, I knew it was POSSIBLE.
People did have ponies. No one I knew, but lots of people must have. My mother had a pony when she was a kid. Of course, she lived in the country. Living in the suburbs, with a tiny 50 X 100 lot, she very reasonably explained that there was no way I was getting a pony. No excuses, just a simple fact. I can't have a pony.
It was a huge wish, and eventually I gave up. I yearned and longed and pined for a pony, but I can't have one. Probably ever. But I still want one. And lately, I've been wishing again.
Eventually, while I was still a child, I changed my wish -- the wish on a star wish -- to "happiness." I think I wrote about this a while ago. Wishing for happiness is good. This is a sensible wish, an attainable wish. If I wish for happiness, no matter what else I have, I'll be fine with it. It's less materialistic, which is a good thing, right? Because if you need THINGS to make you happy, you'll never be happy. Happiness comes from the inside, it isn't external. And I've been very happy with my life, so I guess it's come true. It's great when a wish comes true.
But the pony -- there's more to the pony than just a THING. It's love. It's a longing. It's impractical. It's not going to happen. I can't have everything. No one can. I'm not sure I would even really want it if I had it... you know that whole saying about "be careful about what you wish for."
I still wish.
Posted by Sue at 4:11 PM