Monday, March 16, 2009

I'm hungry.

I don't diet.

Because I've never been able to convince myself to stick to a diet.

It's like I have two voices in my head. (Did I ever mention this before? I do repeat myself alot. Maybe it's because I have two voices in my head.)

One voice says, "It's really time to start a diet."

The other voice says, "You can't tell ME what to do."

The first voice usually talks the most about dieting right AFTER I've had something yummy. At that point, the second voice is willing to agree.

But at the first hint of hunger, the second voice says, "EAT." And the first voice doesn't say anything at all. So I eat. And then, AFTER I've eaten, the first voice starts talking again. It says, "It's really time to start a diet."

It doesn't work really well.

Anyway, the girl who sits behind me in work is very good at dieting. She's always on one diet or another, and she walks every day at break and often on lunch as well. She brought in a three day diet plan for me to try.

I made it to the top of the mountain this weekend, right? So I've decided that for three days, I'm going to FORCE myself to exercise some self control. (Plus, I did walk again yesterday, since I had started walking again on that hike.)

My goal is NOT to lose weight. I don't think I'm ever going to be able to do that. My goal is to prove to myself that for three days, I can exhibit self control.

But I'm not happy about it. I'm hungry. This is where most of my diets go bad.

So far I've stuck to it, but I'm not happy. I'm thinking about making my dinner right now and then going straight to bed, so I don't have to think about food. I certainly won't be watching TV with Thor tonight -- well, nothing except the Big Bang Theory. He loves to watch cooking shows, and they make me even hungrier.

I'm not walking today either, because I'm feeling faint.
(No, not really. I'm being overly dramatic. But I'm HUNGRY!)


jozien said...

Hang in there Sue!
I don't know nothing about dieting, too skinny.
But i have other bad habits, that i have never been able to kick. I hope your other readers have any good advice, that might help me too.

Anonymous said...

Good Luck with the 3 day diet. I know I have little to no will power... so I can't say anything.

Carla Cunningham said...

I can relate to this article as I know from first hand experience just how hard it is to lose weight, and to maintain it. I wrote a book called Alone in the Storm, which has recently been published, and it is about an overweight woman who subconsciously put on the weight to protect herself from being hurt by love. She struggles with her weight issues, and in the end she manages to overcome them, but not before she learns some important lessons about herself and life.

Carla Cunningham, Published Book Author of Alone in the Storm

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Sue said...

Jozien -- I expected that you would be skinny, even though I've never met you, because you are always hiking up one side of a mountain and skiing down the other :) I don't think you have bad habits???

Bunny -- I heard from a reliable source that you lost a decent amount of weight recently! So maybe your will power is kicking in?

Carla -- Thanks for stopping by my blog. Writing a book and getting it published is such a great achievement, congratulations!

Anonymous said...

Hi Sue:
I lost 6 pounds! I don't really want to loose more, I'll have to buy new clothes. I just wish I could loose the belly.


Anonymous said...

...and I thought I was the only one that had those persistant voices pestering me!!! Annoying isn't it?? Dieting is always on my list of things to do, I just never get to it...:)
Don't think of the dieting, just enjoy your daily walks!
Happy St. Patrick's Day!

Sue said...

Mom, are you gloating? And my belly is bigger than YOUR belly. Bah humbug.

Marisa -- I actually just ate lunch. ONE boiled egg on ONE slice of toast. NOTHING ELSE. This had better make some kind of difference!!! At least it's the last day of the diet. If it's worked, I may try again next week. Or maybe not.